Confession of.. "Guess Who"!!

         Its been quite long and I know not how you are!! Knowing its better to stay away, yet the need of your company is felt. Yet you are always missed. The wish that we always stay together is always there in the mind.
        Don't know how it is now, outside, but what I know for sure is that the inside is always too cold without you, always too dark without you, always too lonely without you, always too clean without the mess you make, always too clear to see through!! Tears streaming down, when you poke my eyes, is much better than the smile that has subdued the pain, in the heart, because of your absence. I want to be with you even tough your presence makes everything blurred in front of my eyes, even if people shoot stern looks, even if I'm tagged a sinner.. And even if I am harming myself.
        Without you, the evening when I'm indoors are not as soothing, the lonely walks have no worth, the nights are not as thrilling, the cold is not as enjoyable, the shivers are not worth to be felt, the tea and coffee doesn't taste as good.
         With whom should I play with fire, if not with you?! With whom should I practice aiming, if not with you?! How am I supposed to scare everyone around without your hand in mine?!
         How much you are missed, how much you are desired, how much addictive you are is being realised by me in my days of being grounded!!