Introspection #03

As each day passes by, taking life towards an older age, everything feels so distant. I feel so lost in a crowd with people of scattered age groups!! Someone, just a year younger seems like such a kid! And reaching out to elder people also feels uncomfortable or may be I'm just clueless about it. The longing to talk to the old friends of the same age, the same maturity and the same frequency, becomes unbearable. It's like the thirst on a summer afternoon, while you're walking down the street and the cruel sun is in no mood to show any mercy on you. You feel overwhelmed to get one single drop of water but when you get it, you want the whole bottle of water to rush down your throat as if it will drench your soul.

The long waits to meet the old friends and talk about every God damn thing under the sky, are just maddening! It feels as if even one hang out will be worth the long wait but it just doesn't feel right to leave everything behind when the time comes to leave again. Moreover, it gets more and more difficult to make new friends, to meet people who would mean the same as the old friends did. People just don't seem to be from the same planet any more.

The known world seems so distant and the soul just feels so out of place all the time.